Why I am upset rn

 Hi 

I once again haven't written here in forever and honestly I would love to do an update on my life post right now but right now I'm super upset and just want to rant so that is my plan. 

The reason why I am upset right now is pretty stupid in the grand scheme of things. There is this Frat function tonight I wanted to go to but my boyfriend didn't want to go to it. It is some stupid no alcohol dj party. I told him plenty of times that we should go and made it, in my opinion, clear that I wanted to go. The issue is that it's rsvp only. We never rsvp'd, at least I thought. I knew he didn't want to go so I didn't push on it. I find out like 20 mins ago, night of the part he had rsvp'd cause some of his friends who are in the frat forced him to. I was upset cause this is something I genuinely wanted to do and he didn't tell me he rsvp'd which now I can't cause it's too late to. It just kinda feels like he didn't care about my feelings through all of this, and now only cares cause I'm upset. And the worst part is the app I love to go on about the university I go to, everyone on it is saying the music is good and the party is fire so I'm just upset that we aren't going purely cause he never told me he rsvp'd even though once again, he knew I wanted to go.

Now I just kinda want to talk to him about how everyone is saying the party is good but I think I might cry and I know it would just upset him more. And I can't even doom scroll on that app right now because everyone is just talking about the party and honestly I don't want to hear it cause it would only make me more upset.

Sorry this was a short re-introduction to the blog, and an angry upset one at that. 

Thanks for listening :)

Autumn

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